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Personally I see life as something you either like, or loathe. I myself, dare I say, loathe it; life is very much temporary, but not disposable, and I know this. You get one shot, and either you do great or mess up big, like a painting. So far along I’ve messed up, and see not a wondrous future though I suppose there is time to fix things, and or start over. But I don’t intend on trying to fix things, especially if there’s the possibility its not even my fault. I’m not going into detail with my life, as it is completely irrelevant to the subject, though I will say that I see life as a survival game and each individual stage of life as the playing field, each requiring a different strategy. Adolescence, lie to live and survive your parent(s).
The way I see life, is rather depressing I suppose, is something to just get over with. “It’ll all be over soon” I guess? I don’t particularly enjoy life, as many others do, the only thing I can say I’ll miss are two people in particular; both of them being close friends of mine, as for my family? I’m pretty much completely cut off from them so I don’t much ‘care’ for them. Materials things are another thing to cover, T.V., music, games, etc. are fun...until you realize what reality is, and how unlike what you’re doing is to that, and then it becomes depressing. Money bounds me not to life, money is unnecessary to an extreme. The idiot who invented it should have been hanged, and or burned at the stake for stupidity, which ever is preferred.
Life is temporary, and death is eternal; there’s no escaping that fact. Some fear death and some, or maybe its just me, await it. An eternal rest seems nice to me, I love to sleep and do it quite frequently; its peaceful, I’m left to no one but my thoughts, and to top it off no pain, no hurt, nothing. What I would give to have that existence, but I assume it would grow unnerving and maybe even boring to an extent. Life is okay, but I suppose in reading this you probably understand my thoughts on this, and I think death is better. Also, if “I think I have it so horrible why don’t I just kill myself and get it over with?” BECAUSE. Suicide is stupid, I don’t have it any worse than anyone else, I just don’t enjoy life as much as another person; as one person doesn’t enjoy rollercoaster rides as much as another. I just don’t get all that enjoyment out of it, my expectations are low for myself, but that doesn’t mean I won’t move forward to college or else where; and my values aren’t all that high either; my goals are limited, just getting through life itself being on the very top; sadly, my priorities are ranked by how I feel, and slightly by my schedule(one of these days I’m sure to be struck for it); and lastly, my relationships are probably the highest thing in my life, they ARE my life. Without them I’d be a walking shell, not happy nor sad, just a shell of what is called a human being. These are what I treasure most, of anything at all, and what keep me bound I suppose.
This is how I picture my life, take it or leave it. This does infact shape life, my life. I invest my time into friendships more so than schoolwork, I spend my money on day to day things rather than saving for what is truly needed for the future, and I use my talents of drawing to entertain myself and those around me for this journey through life, and as for how I value my relationships..? Not even an uneducated person wouldn’t be able to guess that I value them most, and above everything, even over my own life. I know its not all, happy-peppy-perfect but it’s the truth. The truth is dark and dumb, but most can’t except that, so they substitute it...
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u seem cute ;) wats ur msn please
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